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Well, it keeps getting worse when I think it's gotten as bad as it can get. Colleen seems determined to get as much of her way as she can no matter what that means doing to my life. There is an undeclared war going on between us, and I didn't ever intend that to happen. I don't know what to do to stop it. If I let her do whatever she wants, she's going to stomp all over me, and I can't take it. I can't keep holding my feelings inside.
The thing that is bothering me is that I don't know how to go through this and still live by my beliefs. I don't know what You would do in this situation. You would probably never have gotten into it in the first place. I don't even know where to look for guidance. Is it unloving to insist on privacy sometimes? Is it unloving to ask someone to wash out her own dishes so they don't pile up? Is it unloving to ask someone to respect you the way you respect her? Is it unloving to do what I have done? How am I sinning? How do I express my anger without sinning? How do I keep from breaking down from this? How do I stay close to You? I really don't care if I never see her again, but I can't lose You.
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