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Thanks for visiting my diary. I've been journaling since 1984 and have chosen to share some of my entries online. They are not all positive thoughts, but I hope that reading them might be a blessing to someone who needs encouragement.
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I am TIRED of this. I am tired of praying for a friend. I am tired of not having one. I AM TIRED OF BEING ALONE... I am tired of saying things are fine when they aren't.
I don't know You are there. I want something tangible--yes, still. What is the reason for this? I'm tired of writing songs out of this. Can't I write a praise song for once? I just want to be a normal person, just for a little while. I know. That wouldn't be enough for me. I have to get by with the bare minimum. But why is that not enough for everyone? No, I don't want to go through this alone. No, I don't see anyone else here. I know you didn't promise me a social life.
But You did say whatever I asked in Your name. You did say You came to give sight to the blind. Yes, I do have a problem believing I have received it. Do I have to have THAT MUCH faith?! If so, then please give it to me. Because I don't have it.
I know You turned and left the tempter. Well, where do I go? Where are You?
Yep, I want healing AGAIN. Maybe it is a selfish prayer, but I have to ask.And I at the very least want peace. You said it was mine. Don't worry about forcing it in. I'm asking, even if I resist. I know You're better than that.
Nothing I could do could hinder Your will from being done. And I believe Your will is for me to be at peace, even if it isn't for me to be healed.
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