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I've always despised exclusivity in friendships. In my world all my friends would meet each other and love each other the way I love them--because they all have things to give to each other. I know that not everyone is going to have "chemistry" or "the connection." But I don't like the "this is my friend and you can't be friends" routine, and I start getting concerned about my dependency issues when I catch myself falling into thoughts like that--and there are times when I do. Usually they're times when I'm afraid of being left out or seen by the other person as a threat. I think this is part of why I sometimes have trouble when my long-distance friends go out... I used to have the same troubles when my roommate at AU would go out with her boyfriend, even when we had all just done something fun. I'm not entirely sure how to put those feelings in words. I know they are not truth--they're fears. They were wonderful about including me and doing it because they wanted to. My long-distance friends initiate as much as I do, and I know they would never leave me out of something. So why do I still struggle with the feelings?
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